One year before, in camp during the end year hols, I stood up. Stamping the element of fear, of pride, of shyness and of arrogance, I made my way to the altar. At that point, I surrendered to God, inviting Him into my heart once more. It wasn't defeat, instead it was an open door, a gateway to a new life. It was Christmas for me, truly Christmas.
This year, on Christmas Day, I did it again. Once Pastor Ong asked of those who wished for Jesus to enter into their lives again, for those who lost their way, misled and misguided, ignoring Jesus's staff and for those who replaced
Christmas to
Xmas, I didn't need to pause, there was no need to ponder, I knew I need to give in to God again.
Because the truth is, I really did went astray. Undeniably I put God aside and the love He gave me. I forgot the promise God made to me, and the one I made to Him. And all because of that my glass had been half filled, always yearning for more, to fill that hole in my heart. It was empty, I was empty, as my heart stared into nothingness. Literally blackness. Not even darkness, not a peek, but blackness.
If you've followed me throughout the years, the entire posts of this blog, my blog, you'll see that I've changed so drastically over the years. Honestly, I'm almost a completely different person. Almost. And you would have seen me going hay wire. Okay wait, I'm not going to comment on that.
Oh God. It was awesome, yesterday night was awesome. I cried so hard, though seriously, love every single second of it. My Heavenly Father did it again, truly a season of miracles. If you don't know Jesus, you should. 'Cause no one, no human can provide such assurance and security and love to your heart, to your soul. My God can, He is able and I've witnessed it so many times.
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Gosh, so many you humans out there to thank.
Thank you for persuading me to go, to the concert, all of you people I call friends! Thank you Jeremy for the car, thank you Ben for driving me there, thank you Steven for calling and answering me and thank you John Jee for trying to get me there. Great guitaring dude, was good, and nice lyrics! Haha :D
Everyone there, [insert names of attendees], especially of those who came fourth and stood beside me after I've finally stopped crying, appreciate it, thanks man. Ooops, allow me to rephrase, thanks m
en. For all you girls who dumped Joanne and I alone, I shall remember you, have you marked in my head, you see la this Sunday.
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All that head banging by my huge-headed neighbors, screaming right at my ears as if I'm deaf, don't worry you shall kena next time. Merry Christmas pretties and handsomes!

Yes I shall update soon all about my vacation to the west (: